What a way to spend a weekend

Since Wednesday night I have been having panic attacks and anxiety attacks, though don't know what triggered them. They started when I was curled up in bed reading a car magazine, so nothing obvious as a trigger. Normally I'll have one or two then nothing for a few days but this time they just keep happening and so I'm trying hard to relax so that the fear or anxiety of having the attacks doesn't become self fulfilling.

With the result I'm absolutely shattered, I feel like I'm recovering from a bad dose of the flu. All to often I forget that the symptoms of mental illness can affect you physically. Its important that I allow myself to recover but to find the balance of not giving in and allowing it to become an excuse to hide.

Another thing that is important is for me to try and discover the cause, I won't allow myself to worry over not knowing but during the breaks in the panic and anxiety I am trying to remember what my thought processes might have been just prior to an attack. The problem is that the brain is so fast and thoughts that can impact greatly on you do not necessarily need to linger in my mind or announce their presence loudly.

One area that I am aware is a problem is that I am trying to change so many aspects of my life, so this week I plan to make a list of the changes I want to make and create an approximately schedule for them. This means that I can prioritise these changes and stop them from paralysing me with fear.