Hyper Logicality

Last night things got really bad. I kept hearing in my head what a freak I am, that I am a lonely freak that no-one could ever love. I'm sure if I looked at things rationally I could explain where all these thoughts stem from, but the depression does not allow true rational thinking.

The depression either allows me to totally ignore any logical thoughts of mine or others, or it goes into so called hyper rational thought, where my mind starts out quite logically but then goes past the point where most people would stop and takes it to a point where the logic becomes destructive.

I know that my mind is blowing something out of all proportion and I have tried to stop it but it goes on and on with it to the point where it is beginning to seriously affect me. I try to voice my fears, my destructive thoughts but I am scared that people will think me silly for having them. There is no point people telling me no to worry believe me that is the one thing guaranteed to make me annoyed. I am worrying and being told not to feels like my fears are being belittled. I just want to talk them through for someone to take the time to ask me whats up, and to care enough to listen and help me through.