Mind affecting body

Had a really rough night, and woke up soaking due to night terrors. So allowed myself to be lazy today.

I am trying not to be so hard on myself. I had planned to go for a walk on my own today, but really didn't feel up to it, so went for a little walk with Dad. Instead of beating myself up I have said to myself that at least I went out for a walk, and perhaps tomorrow I will feel more able to go out on my own.

Due to what happened a couple of nights ago the fear of going out has increased once again, partially due to the fear of  bumping into a specific person. I know its a silly fear but my mind has blown it out of all proportion  to the point where just the thought of it happening makes me feel sick. Just writing this now obviously brings the thoughts to the forefront of my mind and has triggered a panic attack.

I hope that with time and slowly building up my exposure to being outside that the fears will subside.