The pursuit of happiness.

Today has been a write off due to waking up with a migraine. I am trying not to give into aches and pains because if I do I would never get anything done unfortunately migraines are one of the exceptions to the rule.

I was watching a tv programme last night when one character made a wish for another that they would find happiness and the other character replied that she didn't know what that was. I must admit to agreeing with that character. Since my second breakdown I feel that I have lost what it is to be happy. Part of me thinks that I  am scared to be happy, and part of me thinks that I don't deserve to be happy. I understand where both thoughts come from, what I need to be able to do now is to work my way through this.