Two Steps Back One Forward

Been a mixed day today. Its is interesting when a radio show does a phone in about depression, because another celebrity has come forward to say that they have suffered from it, how many people will phone in to say what have the celebrity got to be depressed about. Our society tends to equate happiness with physical belongings.

Some people would look at my life and probably wonder the same, but depression is indiscriminate, it does care what you do or don't own, what you do or don't do for a living.

For some reason my depression is well and truly back, there is nothing that I can put my finger on and say that is the reason, all I know is that the anxiety and panic attacks are definitely back, along with being extremely scared of what the future might bring. It is getting so back that it is coming close to paralysing me with fear. I am trying to fight it as well as I can, I did my driving lesson today and fitted a blind I made to the back door, and I plan to go to camera club tomorrow and another driving lesson. So I am doing what I can but the fear is there.