Small Victories

Depression and insomnia still keeping me company. Its interesting that no mater how exhausted and empty I feel I still manage to find that little bit more. After some sorting this morning this afternoon was sewing. Sitting at home before I went I once again had an argument with myself about whether I was going or not. I had missed last week due to a stomach bug, and know the more I miss the hard it becomes to go.

So despite feeling that I had nothing left to give I managed to go, though the exhaustion that the depression causes did make the walk up the hill feel twice as long. For those of you who have never had depression, the closest I can get to explain is the extreme tiredness you might feel after a dose of flu.

It was an interesting walk home, as I had completed about 1/3 before the anxiety kicked in. It was almost as if my brain had suddenly realised that I was outside on my own and walking. Lets hope this keeps up and soon I can complete 1/2 the walk before my brain wakes up.