Having to let go

Had another  bad night. and haven't been able to enjoy the sunshine today due to yet another migraine. I came to the realisation this afternoon that perhaps I am trying too hard, trying hard to sleep and trying too hard to recover.

I have spent the last week fighting all the fears in my head, telling myself they are stupid and that I am stupid to allow them to affect me. Somehow I have to learn to let go, something that I find near to impossible to do but if I want to have any sort of normal life, I have to learn.

Tomorrow the Olympic torch will be in Swansea and the route that it is taking means it wont be far from the house, I am planning to go and see it despite the fact that in all probability there will be crowds. But I refuse to allow my anxieties to stop me seeing a piece of history.