Meccano Therapy

Not been such a good few days for me, was looking forward last Friday to going to Cardiff to see the Quarter Finals of the women's football in the Olympics, Japan v Brazil, unfortunately when i woke up Friday morning I had a migraine so it was impossible to go. This then triggered a bout of depression as i felt I had given in and also because I had been looking forward so much to going. This latest bout of depression has come with a side measure of panic attacks. It has got to the stage now with the panic attacks that I have had so many that when one occurs  I stop what I'm doing and simply ride it out concentrating on slowing down my breathing.

Last night I had yet another panic attack late in the night and as I sat downstairs I thought that it would be worth trying to do something to distract myself, i realised that i had a remote control car to build out of meccano and started to do it. After about an hour on it, and barely getting any of it built I realised how good a decision it was. When the depression is bad, or panic/anxiety attacks occur all too often I get angry and this anger ends up being turned inwards, last night doing the meccano I had something else to focus and periodically get annoyed with, but as it took so much focus to either decipher the plans , find the right piece or get the nut to go onto the bolt that there wasn't space in my mind for anything else.

After several hours of building this is as far as I have got, step 8 of 23.