Well the plans I had for today went out the window. When I woke this morning not only did i have a bad headache also nearly every muscle in my body appeared to be aching. This muscle ache is a direct result of the stress and tension I put my body through yesterday.
But instead of saying well I wont manage to do any of my activity scheduling today I looked at the plan for the next few days and saw an activity that was planned for Sunday that I felt that I would be able to do today. So a little gardening was done, including the lovely job of picking blueberries.
The long session with my psychiatrist yesterday helped me to coalesce some ideas that have been floating around my head in recent weeks. I have come to realise that it is my anxiety that is the life limiting factor rather than the depression. We are seeing increased understanding about depression by the general public, though when mental health is talked about very little if anything is said about anxiety. Part of the problem is that everyone thinks they know about anxiety and therefore can't see why it should be a problem. Everyone at sometime in their life has been anxious at sometime or other, whether when about to give a speech in public or waiting exam results, so they assume that its not that big of a deal. But believe me it can be, imagine being anxious everyday, having anxiety growing into something approaching fear when faced with the things that scare you. Being scared of things that most people can do everyday without a second thought.
Whilst reading an article last night about Doctor who I came across a quote which Jon Pertwee as Doctor who said, and that I find and plan to try to hold onto.
'Courage isn't just a matter of not being frightened. It's being afraid and doing what you have to do anyway'.
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