Tears

When I was younger it took a lot to get me to cry. I remember a number of times after the youth group had been away for a few days several of the girls crying as we left, and I would be on the edge of the group wondering what all the fuss was about.

Since the depression started I can cry at nothing, for example the depression was such that I spent all the evening and most of the night crying, though if you asked me why there was no specific cause, I find this one of the harder aspects of depression to deal with.

The other aspect of depression that is hard to cope with is the feeling of not caring. On the whole I love reading, anyone who knows me would agree with that statement. But at the moment I am really struggling to read anything, even books by my favourite authors.

My plan for tomorrow is  to start up activity scheduling again, this is a technique I have used before and did help to a small degree. The idea of activity scheduling is to ry and do activities that fulfill certain conditions, these are, an activity that gives you a sense of achievement, an activity that you enjoy, a physical activity and a social activity. It is possible for an activity to cover more than one condition, for example a walk to take some photos would fulfill the condition of something physical and something I enjoy.