Altering the programme

I think whoever programmed my brain either missed out a few lines of the programme or some other error has creeped in.

I am trying to analyse certain thoughts that come into my head, the idea being if I can understand them better I stand a chance of altering some of my thought processes that I know are faulty. The prominent thought in my head at the moment is concerning my driving test, I have realised that I am not afraid to fail for me, as I know that I can do it again, I can afford both the time and the money, but I am afraid that I am letting others down, that I am letting my driving instructor down, letting my friends and family down, who have wished me well. This thought process I know isn't logical but some fault in my programming wont allow me to drop the thoughts, to accept that it is faulty and put out of my mind. Whether I will find the cause of the faulty programming i don't know and in someways it doesn't matter, hopefully I have taken another step to recovery by realising that there are faults in my thought process.

Now the next step to to learn which are the faulty thoughts and then learn to let go of them.