Despite what for me was a good nights sleep I have struggle today. One part of my problem is that some many people have said that a good nights sleep was what I needed that I began to believe it. Due to finally taking my sleeping tablets I have had two half decent nights sleep, today was still one that I wanted to hide from the world. Somehow I managed not to give in, helped in part by a visit from an good friend and her daughter.
Once the visit was over instead of going back to bed to hide I managed to stay up and get the Wii out. People who say that video games lead to obesity obviously haven't seen me playing sword fighting in Wii Sports resort 20 minutes of that followed by 10 minutes Wii fit made up for the fact that due to the weather I didn't go for a walk.
So that is know 4 days in a row that I have exercised and my diet is going ok, I just hope I lose weight when I get weighed by the nurse next month. I am becoming more and more aware that so much of my depression and self hatred is tied up with how I perceive myself and how I believe others to perceive me, whether this is true or not. I have tried losing weight before but after a few months tended to give up, so I am hoping this time by ensure people know that I am trying they will ask me how its going and by that help me to stick to it this time, because until I lose some weight I know that no matter what else I do, or treatment I receive my recovery will never be complete.
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