I'm still fighting this latest bout of depression, which is affecting my sleep. Despite lack of sleep I managed to go out to Hafal. I didn't go out this afternoon with the photography group as the effort of getting to Hafal was such that going out would have been too much for me, especially as I had a tutorial on recovery this afternoon.
This afternoon group tutorial was looking at confidence, when it came to talking about an achievement we are proud about, I broke down in tears, I could mention things that I had succeeded in but nothing I could say I was proud about. The moment I try to think of something I am proud of I start self sabotaging. Yes but..... Is a phrase frequently heard in my head.
After Hafal I walked most of the way home on my own, this is a giant step forward as of the two routes home I could go both involve walking along a busy road at 5pm, and to add to this I didn't have my headphones and mp3 player with me.
I am absolutely shattered now, and plan to hopefully start on a new sleep regime that hopefully will eventually help me get a full nights sleep.
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