The last two times I've been to Hafal in the evening and following days I've had bad bouts of depression. I'm due to go there tomorrow and I have to admit I'm more scared than normal. I don't know if Hafal triggers something or its a coincidence but the thought of going through another bout of depression like the one I am currently in makes me feel sick. Its hard to try and maintain a balance if I'm not careful I am going to cause the very thing I fear by building it all up in my mind.
I know the logical thing is to keep going till my mind accepts it and I don't react, but this is easier said than done. Its easy for people to say stick with it, but often they don't realise the full level of anxiety and the fear of depression is having on me.
So its a case of focus on the fact that going is a good excuse to get some photography done. Time will tell.
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