Well last night I tried to get to sleep before 4 am, I managed eventually to get to sleep by 2 o'clock unfortunately it was 2pm. So tonight despite how much I hate taking them I will have to resort to my sleeping tablets. I have to realise that it is going to take some time to get my sleeping into a somewhat normal pattern, after 15 years of insomnia. But if I am going to have hope of a normal life my sleep is a major issue that needs tackling. One of the main reasons for getting this sorted is so I can be prepared to apply for work, but another two reasons are a) being tired is a trigger for my migraines, b) being tired is a trigger for my depression.
There are going to be occasions when sleep is still going to be hard, and I have to accept that change isn't going to happen overnight, and at times is going to be hard. But it is one fight I am determined to win. I know for those of you reading this who have never had insomnia might be wondering what the fuss is about, imagine going to bed night after night and no matter how tired you are not going to sleep. Now instead of just a couple of nights of this image this night after night for 15 years.
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