Just over 2 months ago I decided to give my ex another chance, but last night I had that trust thrown back in my face in a really bad way. This has left me to put not too fine a point on it fighting for my life, it has triggered such a bad depression that despite being here before I cant see my way out, or if I am being trueful whether I want to find my way out.
What I mean by this is what is the point if this is my life. One of the few things I want in life was someone who loved me for me, I thought I found her just to have it destroyed. All I can think of now, even if it sounds self pitying, is that I am alone and will die alone. I want to know what is wrong with me.
I have spent most of last night and today fighting the thoughts not of self harm but of a way out. I am sorry of this sounds melodramatic or over the top but the point of this blog is for me to write what I feel and not what I think people would like to read.
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