Isolation

I am trying hard to do all the various things that have been suggested over the years to help with my depression, and none of them are helping. I know someone might think "well how much worse would you feel if you didn't do them", I know that is a possibility that I might be feeling worse, but if I am completely honest I can't imagine feeling much worse than how I feel right now.

Its really strange that other times I have felt this bad there have been events in my life that would have made anyone feel bad, but on this occasion there has not been any obvious cause. It might be a combination of things, but because I can't identify the cause it makes it all the more frightening. It probably doesn't help me that at the moment I am away from home, the longest I've been away from home since I've been ill without my dad. I am staying with my brother and sis-in-law and their kids, I know me and my brother have never been really close, but I am serious wondering why I have come here.

Feeling totally isolated despite the internet and facebook, without which I really think I would have done something to myself because without facebook I would not have had any support what so ever.