Really pleased with myself, it might not seem much to most people but I got up today and did some work on my AS level photography portfolio. I'm still getting over the infection in my mouth and the removal of a tooth. I am also going through the hard process of trying to sort my sleep out, I have had insomnia on and off for 16 years, and whilst my sleeping patterns meant that no matter what time I got up I would not get off to sleep till 4am it was impossible to think about finding a job. Its only been 10 days but its heading in the right direction, I know it is going to take time and isn't always going to be easy, but at least it is heading in the right direction.
The big thing about doing some work on my portfolio is down once again to the issues surrounding my self confidence, I am so scared of failure that it is paralysing me. I know that if I don't complete the work it is a failure, but in my mind it is better than failing on course marks. No matter how often people say they like a particular photo of mine I can't get it out of my head that they are just being nice. So today I decided that I would just slowly get on with working on a couple of images that I need for my portfolio and try and forget what I am doing them for, to just concentrate on them as images and not images for my portfolio.
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