Another why bother

A bad night and bad weather has meant me not being able to do today what I had planned and was looking forward to. This then combined with another headache has lead to the restarting up of my depression. All this has lead to me going through another bout of why am I bothering. Tiredness makes it harder to fight, and depression does need fighting. I have got up and tried to do things in order to feel just a little better but so far no luck. The depression is in and so once again I am fighting against tears and my own mind.