And on it goes

I have lost count of the number of people who have told me that I need to relax. This is so much easier said than done, especially when so much gets you uptight and anxious. Every time the phone rings, there's a knock at the door, or I have to leave my bedroom. The tension keeps being added to. The more I try to get back to a somewhat normal life the more tension, the more tension the more headaches and migraines which then makes it harder to keep going.

Issues surrounding mental health are slowly being talked about by the media, correction, issues surrounding depression are getting slightly more coverage by the media, but mental health issues cover so much more. To say someone is mentally ill is just the same as saying that someone is physically ill, it means nothing. There are so many different aspects of mental illness that are not spoken about. Its the prejudice that we face that often goes unreported, I have depression and social phobia due to chemical imbalance in my brain, this has also added to by environmental factors. If I had a similar chemical or genetic imbalance in my body which caused a cancer I would receive sympathy and understanding, not suspicion. I am not crazy, or dangerous, in fact the only person I have hurt is myself.

I managed to get out for a walk today, though not on my own as it was very busy but at least I got out, in the past I would have found an excuse not to.