Been crying on and off since last night, crying so hard at points that I started to shake. I know what triggered it but just don't know how to stop feeling like this. With a result of this everything feels like its conspiring against me. I wanted to print a few pieces out for my A level coursework but for a good half hour my printer wouldn't work and I couldn't see why, I managed to fix it just before I threw it across the room.
All I want to do is hide away from the world, instead I got up earlier than normal and have got on with things, college work, housework and baking. Being busy hasn't stopped the tears but who knows the state I would be in if I hadn't been. It gets frustrating when I am no longer hiding, I am doing my therapy, keeping busy, but still feel awful.
Time and time again people in the medical profession tell me I am doing things right, but if this is the case why am I writing this with tears rolling down my face. At this moment in time I want two things someone to tell me when this will end,, and someone to put their arms round me and tell me they will help me get through this.
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