Recently I've become aware how certain thoughts are preventing me from doing things, from leading a normal life. These thoughts are preventing me from doing things that the major of people will do without giving it a second thought.
For me the fear of rejection has become overwhelming, it affects all aspects of my life. This fear has become so great that it prevents me from asking a friend out for coffee, this will sound ridiculous to most readers of this, but it is how bad this fear of rejection has got. There is no point in getting me to think about what the worse that could happen because I have already beaten you to that thought and got fixated upon this negative instead of the positive. I know I need to fix this as it is impossible to continue living like this, but all I can focus on at the moment is at least I have admitted to the problem, fixing it is too scary. Hopefully when the depression isn't as bad as it is today I will make a step towards remedying it.
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