I was really hoping to make it three days in a row of going out, unfortunately this wasn't to be. I woke up after a bad night with a really bad headache, so had to give up on my plans to go to Mumbles to do some photography. I did start beating myself up feeling that I had given in, but as soon ad I realised what I was doing I made an effect to put a stop to it. My therapist gave me a technique to try to stop when I start these mental beatings, I now wear a bracelet which has elastic cord, when I start beating myself up I pull on it and let it go, this slight snap just provides a distraction and helps to disrupt the beating. I have only been doing it for a few days but so far it seems to help.
So once I realised I was beating myself up I tried to stop it by thinking I can try again tomorrow to get out, and also it has been a long time since I went out two days in a row, and not only did I go out but I did walk a little bit on my own in town and go into some shops on my own again this is something I haven't done for a very long time. So I am trying to focus on the positive, its not easy but I'm making a start once again heading in the right direction.
