Its my birthday today but for a variety of reasons I have spent most of it crying. One reason is the feeling that my life has slipped by with me achieving nothing. This is amplified that this is my 40th so the saying is its all down here from here, yet due to the illness I haven't had the chance to have a life.
The problem with a birthday so near to new year is that my head goes into overdrive about where my life is and is going. I have been going to my therapy group and have not quit my photography group. But I am still living at home. I don't want much from life anymore I just want to know that I will be safe and secure in the future, and that I am the important person in someone's life.
